If I have learned anything in my life, it is that guilt really keeps me from doing what I want to do and what I should do. What's my problem? Why do I let it affect me? Well, I am human, for one. And for two, I always kick myself later when I don't succumb to guilt.
For instance, this blog, for all intensive purposes, is my journal. Ever since I was a kid I remember my journals had great (and totally sporadic) entries. I would be really diligent about writing every week for a few months at a time (and sometimes even every day), then I would leave pages blank in between to go back and fill it in when I had time. You ask- Did you go back and fill them in? Like, duh...of course I didn't. Don't you know me at all by now? It's humorous that EVERY one of my journals are like that. It's shameful really. I'm surprised I didn't look at that pattern sooner and see what a waste of trees that was.
It just goes to show how my personality is. I'm really good at starting things- but the finishing part has always been somewhat of a challenge for me. I think if I were to do a poll on all of the projects I've done in my life, only about 30% of them would have actually started and finished within a reasonable amount of time. I don't know if that is a characteristic that can be worked on to improve...but I'd really like to try. Any suggestions on how?
PS- My blog brings TONS of guilt...yet, once I get going on writing I feel a gigantic weight off of my shoulders. I don't know why I drag my feet so much in writing. I do enjoy it- and I know that when my ideas are fresh and the events are in my mind- that it makes this process so much more enjoyable.
