Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Realizations...

I have come to the realization that pregnancy has changed me...you say...well of course it has- your gut is bulging and heaven's knows what is happening to your backside!!

To be honest... that isn't my realization. These are...

1) I have become more funny (or maybe it's just that I am being more honest). In saying that, it just seems like people are laughing more at what I say. I take that as "I really am being more funny, and not that they are laughing out of sheer embarrassment for my brutal honesty...or just plain inappropriate words". One of the two. Blake thinks I should go do stand up with Clay...that's a little far fetched- honestly. Either way, the world is a happier place with honesty.

2) I have been given an immense gift of olfactory senses...it has been borderline ridiculous. Smells are killing me. In dealing with realization #1 (brutal honesty), I do feel bad that Blake has been getting the brunt of realization #2 (can't stand bad breath and stinky toots). As I have publicly called him out on that, I apologize- just know that I love him DEARLY- even when I have to evacuate the house for minutes at a time. He is a man, for heaven's sake.

3) I have become more of a procrastinator than ever. I can't seem to get my motivation on track. All I think about is LOST, American Idol, and my desire to cease having dreams about bloodshed- in the most violent of ways. School has been kicking my butt and it is all up hill from here. Just yesterday I had a paper to write- finished it at 5:30pm when I had to be to class at 6. I can't focus on writing a blog entry or even starting book club books. I am ridiculous.

4) The other day in the car I (lovingly) commented (shouted) at a driver who almost ran my car over...then as I'm sitting there just fuming I realized #1- my baby just heard every last word I said #2- my baby doesn't understand words yet, so I'm off the hook #3- my baby understands sound and tone of voice- I am no longer in the clear- I have just let myself and my baby down. I know we don't become perfect parents over night... but that was just plain ugly behavior. I wanted to cry, but then also realized #5.

5) I have become LESS emotional since being pregnant. Is that a medical miracle or something?

6) I always had a really bad memory- but now I have (what I call, and evidentally others too) pregnancy brain. "Pregnancy brain is a condition that affects expectant mothers, usually during the first and third trimesters. Sometimes known as placenta brain or baby brain drain, the condition is usually characterized by short-term memory loss or forgetfulness. Some medical experts say that pregnancy brain is a myth, but evidence shows that many women have experienced this condition". (www.wisegeek.com) I trust this geek. My vocabulary has digressed and I forget the simplest of things. I am still ridiculous.

Have you made any realizations about me that I am looking over?

5 comments:

A Letter To Kayleen said...

you are funnier. i think it's because everyone is a little more beast-y when they're prego. and i like that about people. it makes them more real. and funnier.

your #4 kills me. i don't think your baby will hold it against you. owen is out of my womb and he's able to look past my screaming road-rage-rants. they'll always love you anyway.

all i can think about is LOST and paradise hotel 2 and i'm not pregnant. don't feel bad. do less now, because you definitely won't be able to do less later.

Cori Carpenter said...

Well, we can't make any realizations about you, when we never see you guys!!! J/K I know you are busy!!
So I couldn't help compare your realizations with myself!...
#1-I am so not funny, nor have I ever been, so I can't relate with you there!
#2-Smells are always common...just be grateful that Blakes cologne doesn't make you vomit...or chicken salad...yuk!
#3-Can't relate on procrastination, I have probably become more of a non-procrastinator since I have been prego!
#4-I still can't control my temper in the car even with Indi there!....so sad!
#5-I am your typical emotional roller-coaster...You must be a medical miracle!
#6-Lets just say I keep putting empty glasses in the fridge as well as crackers...peanut butter...yeah...my brain is mush!!

sarbear said...

i've totatlly noticed that you are less emotional. you've successfully read scriptures in sunday school without tearing up. that's pretty out of character mand.

i'll let clay know that you want in on the next gig.

diana rose said...

i feel exactly the same way you do, except i'm an emotional basketcase... one moment i'm furious and the next i'm crying over how furious i am. and i hate prego-brain. i just can't function properly.

jaime said...

i'm with you on pregnancy brain. i'm a complete nutcase when i am pregnant. can't remember a dang thing...

and mandy dear, you may be LESS emotional now because there was no way in the world that you could be more emotional than you were... you have to top out somewhere and yours was pre-pregnancy.