Thursday, April 21, 2011

crazy day...crazy few weeks...

I'm doing alright people. That is the bottom line. Just for the sake of keeping a record here is the story as far as I can tell it. 

I had a miscarriage in January and felt like I knew I would be able to get pregnant again soon. I found out April 5 that I was 5 1/2 weeks pregnant and was ecstatic! It didn't feel like the last time. I felt like this pregnancy was going to be ok. On Saturday April 9 I started to have the all-too-familiar bleeding (red and heavy) and I was just sure I miscarried again. Well, the following Sunday and Monday I took a home pregnancy test and they both showed up as pregnant. I called my doctor immediately Monday morning and he had me come in on Tuesday to have an ultrasound and blood test done to check my HCG (pregnancy hormone) levels. So after the ultrasound my doctor confirmed the pregnancy was no longer "viable" (so....I miscarried....again). 

Or so they thought.

I went in again on Thursday to do a follow up blood test. Friday noon I had some weird sharp pains in the middle of my lower abdomen- not bad enough to lay me out- but they hurt pretty bad. It only lasted for about 5 minutes, then went away. Friday afternoon I get a call back from my Dr. to tell me the results of the blood tests. 

Tuesdays HCG levels- 530. Thursdays HCG levels- 890. WHAT THE HECK? (when you aren't pregnant your HCG should be less than 3!!!)

For someone who didn't have a baby in my uterus those levels are VERY HIGH!! Well, Dr Huish says..."it looks like you are still pregnant, but usually we like to see the 2nd HCG number double from the 1st HCG number, and since it didn't quite double we want you to come back in on Tuesday for another ultrasound and blood test." 

Holy roller coaster of emotions!!! pregnant...Not Pregnant....PREGNANT!!! (In the mean time- I've been playing hostess while my parents have been in town with some of their friends, having swimming parties, celebrating Blake's 30th Birthday and having bbq's at our house! Also, Sunday my dad left to go back to Colorado, and Monday Blake, Scott, Chelsea and Shauna left for Orlando FL for a business meeting of a marketing company that they would have on Wednesday morning. 

Ok- so Tuesday I went in for the ultrasound and blood test. I didn't have a consultation with the doctor scheduled after my ultrasound, so the tech said my dr would call me back by Wednesday afternoon with the results. On Tuesday afternoon I reluctantly said goodbye to my mom as she flew back to Colorado that night! 

Wednesday morning 4:00 am April 20, 2011: Jovie starts crying so I bring her into my room and lay her in the bed next to me, since Blake isn't here. As I lay in bed I start getting a horrible dull pain again in my lower abdomen. At this point I am now 7 1/2 weeks pregnant. I get intermittent sleep between 4 and 7am and then Jovie wakes up. I still have a horrible pain in my stomach and when I go to use the restroom I could barely get out 5 drops of urine and when I wipe I notice bright red blood. That's when my body started tingling from head to toe. It was a horrible sensation. Fear just came over me and I thought I was gonna pass out so I layed on the floor for a minute or two. By then, Jovie came into the bathroom and saw me on the floor- I tried to calmly ask her to go get my phone on my nightstand- but I think me completely pale, lying on the floor kinda freaked her out and she just paced around me trying to pull me off the floor. I knew something was severely wrong with me at this point because my body was still tingling and I was feeling horribly faint. I decided to run and leap onto my bed to get to my phone. I called 911- CALL FAILED!! I thought to myself....I'm gonna die right here in my room and Jovie is going to be the only one here watching her mama die!!! I finally got through to a dispatcher who stayed on the phone with me while I crawled down the stairs and dragged myself to the front door to unlock it so the paramedics could get inside. An ambulance came and took me to the hospital. Luckily my bishop who lives across the street saw the ambulance and came over to check on things so he was able to take Jovie until Blake's sister could come pick her up. Thank heavens for good people- especially being there at the right time!

So once I got to the hospital they ran a bunch of tests and did an ultrasound. 
Thankfully my sis-in-law Jaime was able to come sit with me in the ER- it was so comforting having her there with me! By about 10:30 am (PST) Blake and the rest of the family were able to switch their flights and come home early and be home by 5:30 pm (PST). At about 11:15 am my doctor, the radiologist and the ER doctor determined I had an ectopic pregnancy (baby implants in the fallopian tube instead of the uterus). I basically could have died if I would have waited any longer to go to the hospital. My tube could have burst and I would have bled internally. Very scary stuff!!!

So at noon my brother Eli and Bro-in-law Rajiv came to give me a blessing before my surgery at 12:30 pm. Blake had no idea that I was even having surgery since he was in the air before I got the news. So he found out on his layover in Kansas City that I was mid surgery. I felt so horrible because I know that must have totally freaked him out! By 2:00 pm the surgery was over and I was in recovery until about 4:00 pm waking up to see a good friend Barb- Nielson (from Blake's home ward/book club) who works at the hospital pass by my bed and recognize me!! So we talked for a bit and then Jaime and Kayleen came in to check in with me! It was so nice to see faces of my loved ones!

So surgery went as well as it could have. They did a laparoscopy- which is just 2 small incisions in my abdomen and 1 incision in my belly button. They ended up needing to remove my right fallopian tube and the baby as it was too damaged to save. But I will still have two good ovaries and my left tube so I should still be able to bear more children. Hopefully.

I was able to go home at 4:30 pm which I was just happy to be in the comfort of my own home at this point!! Hospital beds can be so uncomfortable! Thankfully I had Jaime, Jason and Rajiv here to help out with Jovie and drive me from the hospital. Blake got home at 6 pm with everyone and I was feeling very grateful to see him and everyone else. I'm gonna be down recovering for a few days but overall I'm feeling pretty good and am in good spirits!

Thanks for your love, concern, prayers, etc. I've got great friends and neighbors who have shown the true spirit of Christ-like love and charity. Thank you for everything. You don't know how much this all means to me. 


Ryan said...

I'm sorry Mandy. What a hard thing to have to go through. I'm so sorry. Sending love to you and your family.
xo, Ryan

Amanda Cluff said...

I am so sorry Mandy. My prayers are with you and your family. I am so glad you were able to call 911 and are recovering.

Carrie & Dustin said...

What a horrific event to have to go through. I am so glad you made it out in good spirits, and I know god has something (or someone) special in store for you! I love you, you are in my prayers!

Deb said...

Oh Mandy! I started crying during this. So sorry you have to go through this. I am so glad people were there to help. Let me know if you need anything.

Bree said...

We'll keep thinking and praying for you guys. You are a strong woman to go through this. I wish I could help you in some way. Let me know.

Emily N. said...

So scary! I am glad that everything turned out okay and that you made it to the hospital. One of my biggest fears is being home alone with my child and having something happen to me. You were blessed to be able to think and act as you did. You are one incredible, courageous woman!

Carly said...

I am so sorry Mandy, but always available to help...really we're not that far away, and Sam would love Jovie to come play. No offense to her awesome cousins or anything, but they're all boys! If she needs a princess fix, we are so covered.

Tiffany said...

So sorry for your loss, Mandy. Gosh, I can't even imagine going through all of that, and to think of how helpless Blake must have felt at the time.

Thinking about you.

ashley said...

Oh Mandy, I am sorry you went through this! I am so glad you are okay! I also had an ectopic pregnancy, about 10 years burst and I will never forget the pain. I know that HF watched over me, as he did you. I had the same surgery done to remove my right tube and then I had all four of my babies in the years to follow :)
I know all will be okay for you.
<3 Lots of love and prayers <3

Cheri Timothy said...

Holy Smokes Mandy,
I am so sorry. What a week. Take care of yourself and you will be in our prayers.

susan g said...

Oh Mandy, it breaks my heart to read this! I am so sorry for what you've been having to go through. Your strength and your positivity and your testimony are so uplifting. You are one amazing chick and I am better for knowing you and counting you as my friend. Sending love and prayers your way!

The Wizzle said...

Holy crap, Mandy. I'm so, so sorry. This is a lot for one person. I'm glad you are being taken care of, I'm glad you're alive.

Marci McLain said...

Mandy, I am so sorry to hear all the pain (physically and emotionally) you have gone through. Know that you and your family are in our prayers and we are so thankful that you are recovering well! Love you!!

MaMaMaMandy said...

Really- thank you all for your love and prayers!! I am physically almost healed- although the emotional healing may take a bit longer. Luckily I understand Heavenly Father's plan and trust that this is part of the human experience. You are all so great!! I have been blessed immensely by the people around me and you are all no exception!